A letter to my son

Dear Son

I love you.

I love when you are asleep at night and I lay next to you, you find me with your little hand and scratch my chin

I love when our eyes meet, like today as you walked out of school and ran to me.  Keep that up

I love our conversations in the car.  "Daddy why do Transformers need butts when they don't poop?"  or "Daddy I want to be magic, Jesus can stay but I want him to let my fly around everywhere"

I love you for your lucky shirt, which you just knew was the reason we got a free Happy Meal today.

I love sitting at the end of your bed watching you sleep, praying for your health and for you to trust Jesus into your heart.

I need you to know a few things

When you came to us, I was scared.  You were sick and even though I dreamed of raising someone with special needs I was afraid I would do something wrong.  You just smiled.  You are a precious treasure to me and your mommy

We need to go outside and play, I am sorry my legs don't cooperate very well, but lets go exploring in the woods.

Lets play more LEGOS and just build whatever with your imagination.

Lets read more books and Ill do the voices of the characters.

I love when we "sing songs" at night, Little Drummer Boy, Twinkle Twinkle, Take me out to the ballgame, and our special one we made up

(to tune of chorus Train Hey, Soul Sister)

Heeeeey hey hey hey hey
You are my son, and I love you
You are my big big boy
You love your sissies (and Connor!) and your mommy
and you love your Daddy too!

Hey little Collin, oh I love that Collin on the radio, in stereo, hey there you go (kisses follow)

You will make friends, lose them, and find them again

You will succeed, You will fail, I will do my best to help you learn how to deal with both.

We will argue and fight, please know I want to teach you and instruct you and help you in this life.

Respect and Help others, work to learn humility

You will fall in love, your heart will break I will be there to listen.

I have failed you and will fail you, please be patient with me.

Love and respect your mommy, she loves you with all her heart.

As you grow and run past me just remember I will carry you for as long as I can, then let you run, and I will always be behind you praying for you.

I am blessed to be your father

Love Daddy